Self-Forgiveness

An act of taking Self-Responsibility for one's own deeds, actions, consequences, thoughts, beliefs, ideas and who one is in it's entirety. Creating a way for oneself, giving self to self as one releases emotional, feeling and thought baggage. A specific decision to stop something that one realizes is harmful, abusive or does not serve oneself or others.

Basic Guideline for Applying Self-Forgiveness

1. Identify the problem, issue or pattern I participate within. It's recommended to take on a small aspect or part of the problem that one is able to clearly describe and identify in words and walk the whole process of Self-Forgiveness within and as this aspect. Only when that is completed one should proceed with the next aspect of the problem one wants to sort out and let go of.
2. Describe the problem, issue or pattern in writing in as much details as possible. Identify the starting points, processes and outcomes. Describe the feelings and emotional states one is in and participates within in relation to the problem at hand.
3. Go step by step through the writing/description of the problem and apply Self-Forgiveness in relation to each point in as much detail and specificity as possible. Approach each point from different perspectives and angles.
4. Stick to the Self-Forgiveness done. This means not repeating the same mistakes again, participating in the same patterns again or speaking the same words again that I've forgiven myself for and as. This is the practical application of self-forgiveness where one proves to oneself the change is indeed real. Without standing as your self-forgiveness and proving it indefinitely the self-forgiveness is useless.

Examples of Self-Forgiveness

• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing to believe that I do not have to take responsibility in changing the current world as it exist in the moment.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing to fear and believe that I am not good enough or too week to do something about the world situation as it currently exists as accepted and allowed abuse, exploitation and constant fear of survival.

2007 - 2008

Self-Forgiveness and Specificity

Question:

So recently ive been in this cycle of self abuse. ive been smoking cigarettes weed and chewing tobacco and occasionally drinking since i forgave them. I am here writing this to say STOP NO MORE I am here to live my forgiveness and actually make this world a better place i am tired of not caring what i do to myself as long as i get the stimulation my mind desires. why do i desire it? because i know i like it but i know there are consequences to it ive mindfucked myself into liking the stimulation when i know it is wrong to do these things.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to have mindfucked myself into enjoying stimulation such as drinking chewing smoking weed and cigarettes when i know it is self abuse.\

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to have been selfish instead of standing up and realizing that i must stop these things to end self abuse.

I am standing up as equal and one to all of me and saying no more no more self abuse through using tobacco and alcohol to stimulate myself after i have already forgiven it.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself as more then life.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself as this self delusion. I am still not real life someone on my facebook helped me awaken to the fact that i am not real that i still rely on memories. I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself as the belief that i can forgive myself for being an illusion rather than actually living my words.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to think.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself as the song lyrics "all around the world city to city"

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to call song lyrics inside my mind memories rather than what i am experiencing as me as my mind in this moment.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe that forgiveness can fix everything. I am allowing and accepting self correction I am standing as self correction.

It has been over twenty one days and i still have yet to stand up and commit to a four count breath.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting the fear that I have sold myself to mind and will never be able to stand as equal and one with all that is me and do this process.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear hearing the words that i will not be able to do this process if i listen unconditionally.

this has alll stemmed from a moment when i was feeling low and saying to myself within myself that i dont care if i die that i can be sucked dry by the mind. I am not allowing and accepting that.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself as memory of me at my grandmothers today thinking about buying and tin of chew.

Perspective:

I suggest, to assist/support yourself with Self-Effectiveness and Specificity to walk with Self-Direction, is to Stabilize yourself within the Walking/Facing of you as this Point of Addiction through structuring your Self-Forgiveness more specifically and effectively and within-That, you'll assist/support yourself with self-direction and stability.

If you look at the writing of your Self-Forgiveness in relation to the Point you're facing as Addiction/Substance-Abuse - your writing / looking at the point is all over the place/inconsistent and unstable, not actually taking-on the actual core/source/origin points within yourself that you're facing in relation to this point of abuse. So - when taking-on this point, do it properly, effectively and specifically for-Yourself and walk-it as efficiently as you're able to.

This is done through walking one Point at a time, for example - Addiction and one's accepted and allowed manifested-consequence as self-abuse within participating-in/existing as addiction.

Then, you take a look at Addiction within yourself and your world, the specifics and details of how it manifest within you and your world and you apply your self-forgiveness accordingly - focusing on opening-up the details/specifics of how you're existing-as abuse through addiction. And you make sure your self-forgiveness is 'in alignment with' what you're facing as you.

Therefore, suggested - to take on this point properly and effectively, write out the framework of what you're facing in relation to addiction and the abuse within that, so you can see what you're facing as you, then apply self forgiveness specifically in relation to the specific point that you're facing, then - write how you're going to assist/support you to change you and then actually live your words of/as self-change to in fact change you.

So - pull up your socks, discipline yourself and become effective and specific.

The dictionary for applying Self-Forgiveness

Question

Can we use a dictionary for applying Self-Forgiveness? Do you want me to apply Self-Forgiveness for everything I do, sense there is no right or wrong?

Perspective

If you have the 'time' you can do a page or so out of a dictionary a day. I did that a while back too. Just sat with a dictionary and flipped through the pages and any word that 'jumped' out at me I did forgiveness on. I also did it with a Louise Hay book on metaphysics.

There is no right or wrong - just what supports you and each person and animal in this world and is self-honest in the moment.

A Self-Forgiveness Experience

Question

I wanted to message you to tell you that I was watching a video about forgiveness, and then I watched your main video about the importance of forgiving oneself. Everyone knows about forgiveness, but not very much about "self-forgiveness."

I guess I finally understood. I made a list of people that I felt had hurt me. It was a loooong list. Then I went through and said "I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel hurt by (whoever). Then I went through and said "I forgive you (whoever).

I'm only 1/3 through my list, and my stomach area is no longer a hole. It has strength and feels like there is a balloon blowing up inside of it. I cannot believe how much better I feel. It's some kind of strength.

Anyway, I wanted to tell you about it, and thank you for your work. You're helping people, if they would only listen. You are pretty advanced for the general public.

I also have studied a bit of Gurdjieff. I found some of his books with his actual teachings in them when I was on my spiritual quest about 12 years ago. I was doing the stop exercise, and also the part where you look at things that have happened in the past, and look at them through adult eyes. Wow! I did have the same thing happen to me when I did these examinations of important things in the past. Right around my rib cage, it felt like a balloon was blowing up inside of me. It's energy, right?

Nothing bothered me for 5 days. I kept looking at the ground because I couldn't say that my feet were touching the ground. It didn't feel like they touching. It was an incredible experience.

Anyway, you are a very unusual and advanced person. Thank you for your work. Your emphasis on forgiving oneself is very advanced knowledge, and it works! I hope you continue to tell people how important it is, and that they can make progress and see results "immediately." That's what it was, immediate. I wonder how long it would take a psychologist to produce results like that. Probably never.

Perspective

To assist further, with regards to self-forgiveness – is to be specific within the self-forgiveness applied – the specificity within the application of self-forgiveness will assist within the specificity of the release and realization within and as and of self.

Realize it is important in assisting and supporting self to apply self-forgiveness within absolute self-honesty – because if self-forgiveness is merely empty words spoken, the memories remain and suppression of self of the mind is enhanced.

Therefore, the ‘most effective’ was, as I would suggest, is to actually ‘write’ that which you have experienced within you towards the beings, and to as and while and during you write – to apply self-forgiveness. Because realize, that what we experience within ourselves – towards anyone or anything, that someone or something towards which we have reacted within ourselves in thought or deed, is but a reflection of what is existent within ourselves.

For instance, an example: Let us say you were within a situation of confrontation with another human being, and thoughts of judgment and ridicule entered your mind. The suggestion is to apply self-forgiveness for the judgments and ridicules within one’s mind as for instance: I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think within me, that he is a self-centered bastard. And so you continue with the thoughts and reactions within you directed towards another as you. Because when you judge someone within you, within the mind = your judgment-reaction ‘shows you’ – that, that which the other person did that caused the judgment, you’re actually also doing to others – the other person, was merely showing, what you accept and allow within you also to do/speak towards others.

So, whenever something irritates you, or frustrates you, or angers you, meaning ‘triggers a reaction within you’ – realize that that person is actually representing what you’re still accepting and allowing to exist within and as you. So, what you do, in assisting and supporting you effectively – is firstly: When a reaction is triggered within you – apply self-forgiveness for the thoughts and emotions as reactions experienced within you – until there exist no movement within you. Then you have a look at where and when within your world – do you do that exact same thing as the person did who triggered the reaction of irritation/frustration/sadness/anger/judgment within you. From here – you assist and support you within self-corrective application to stop acting/doing that very same thing. This is self-forgiveness, applied in self-honesty together with self-corrective application applied in self-honesty = where within self-forgiveness, you recognize and realize what you have accepted and allowed, and within this realization – you stop what you have accepted and allowed within practical application = so you purify you completely.

The same goes for instance within comparison – when you think/believe within yourself that someone is ‘more than you’, then that aspect of them you think ‘makes them more than you’ – you have no accepted and realized as you, yourself. For instance, let’s say you view/experience another human being as ‘more’ ‘open’ than you are – and compare your ‘openness’ towards another, herein, realize – that because the comparison exists – that you have actually not accepted and realized you as openness, and the comparison within you, towards another = reveals that which you haven’t accepted and realized as yourself. So, here – again, first apply self-forgiveness for the mind-activity: I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to compare ‘openness’ towards another human being and define ‘openness’ within another human being in separation of me. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate me from openness. I accept me as openness. Then, whenever a comparison of openness towards another come up again – you stop the comparison within the mind, and state: I am openness.

So, the specificity within self-forgiveness applied in self-honesty together with self-corrective application – will determine the specificity of self-expression in self-trust here.

No – the ‘blowing up’ is not ‘energy’, ‘energy’ is a limited design of the mind, representing the ‘life force’ of the mind, and you as who you really are is not energy as life for of the mind. The experience you’re having is the suppression of you that is ‘releasing’ – and the expression of you ‘stepping forth’ within and as you. It’s actually a ‘release’ that is experienced.

The ‘floating experience’ is also that of ‘release’ – though, to assist and support you to not define yourself in separation according to an ‘experience’ as that of release – stabilize yourself here, stabilize yourself within and as your breathing, and ensure you are self-aware here within and as your human physical body as you. This is done by being aware of the tips of your toes and tips of your fingers – which will assist and support to ensure you’re HERE within and as breath within and as the physical human body – not ‘losing yourself’ within an experience = which would be separation.

The reason I suggested the writing also, is that it’ll assist within specificity of self-forgiveness applied within self-honesty.

(Bruce L.)

Self Forgiveness and Separation

Question

So now in my experience during forgiveness, i am using words like, "I am not my mind" or "my mind is not who I really am" Yet, this is not so. I at the moment am my mind so when i use the above phrasing, I am actually lying to myself. I speak these phrases and then say to myself "but actually you are these things" However I am working through them.

I am wondering how to reconcile these points. To affirm the truth that I am still a mind consciousness system at the moment but not to give my power as myself as "who i really am" to it. You see this "who I really am" seems like a future version of myself when i am no longer of mind. Actually, I "really am" a mind consciousness system still so why would i say I’m not! You see where I’m at. Still separating myself from my mind, not seeing it as one with me, believing that i must separate my mind from who i really am. Maybe I am supposed to stop my mind but not separate it from who I am as oneness. But that seems pointless also, like carrying around a big rock that really is just extra weight serving no purpose.

Perspective

I understand your experience - let's look at it this way:

First step: Stand within and as oneness and equality as yourself - meaning - standing within and as oneness and equality as you as a mind consciousness system - no separation 'from' the mind as thoughts, feelings, emotions, systems - because in this moment - it's who you are and what you are - thus - you're 'allocating' yourself - your 'finding' your 'allocation' as a mind consciousness system within and as the unified consciousness field. Standing within and as oneness and equality as what you are and who you are in this moment.

Second Step: You know - (knowledge) that you are not a mind consciousness system -meaning that 'who you really are' is not a mind consciousness system - you know (knowledge) who you really are, is life within and as oneness and equality as all as one as equal. Now - you as a mind consciousness system - must birth yourself from system - to/as life within and as oneness and equality as all as one as equal.

Now - to place this knowledge of who you are in practical application - the process of living who you are as life within and as oneness and equality as all as one as equal - the 'tools' are given: Self honesty, self-forgiveness, self-statements, self-corrective application and breathing - living the tools as you to assist and support you within your process of birthing yourself as life from the physical from a mind consciousness system as what and who you are currently in this moment.

Third Step: With you standing within and as oneness and equality as yourself as a mind consciousness system - together with these tools - in placing the knowledge into application of who you are as life within and as oneness and equality as all as one as equal - when you make the statement: I am not the mind - this is not done within / of separation - this is then a statement of realization of you - because you know who you really are is not the mind - and you're currently within this process of realizing yourself as who you really are as life within and as oneness and equality as all as one as equal through practically applying yourself in every moment as every breath.

Because the statement: 'I am not the mind' is a directive statement, you as a mind consciousness system making the statement that this is not who you really are - when standing / as standing within and as oneness and equality as the entirety of you as a mind consciousness system - no separation - here you have the ability to direct yourself effectively within and as your process of realising you as life - if in separation - that which you stand within and as separation of - will direct / control you -then - no movement/self-direction possible.

Thus - all that is required is:

1. Self-honesty in every moment when you see a thought, feeling and emotion arise within you - to immediately apply self-forgiveness

2. Self-forgiveness

3. Self-corrective application

4. Breathing

The process of stopping the mind is placed within the Structural Resonance documents - apply and live the 4 points in every moment of you - so you may live and experience the realisation of who you are of oneness and equality - WITH NO MIND.

First step: Stop the mind - you'll only know who you are/experience who you are/live who you are/understand who you are/speak who you are - when the mind stops.

(Veno)

Self-Forgiveness Examples

Getting Sick

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myslef to believe we can get sick and die I forgive myself taht I have accepted and allowed myself to worry about getting sick I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe in the idea of people getting sick I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the idea that I can get sick that I bought into that idea that was programed into us to create fear and enslavement

I forgive myself that I let the mind tell me that I do not want to do self forgiveness I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed my self to not stand up more often and do the self forgiveness that is required for me to do to release the mcs pattering that I have accept and allowed I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to not stand up to the mind in these matters of doing self forgiveness

I forgive myself taht I have accepted and allow myself to not push myself through the resistance I have to write my book

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge another's illness for fear of looking and seeing my own. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge an other when they get sick because I think them as weak if they get sick

I forgive myself that I have accept and allowed myself to judge myself as weak I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge others as weak and stupid when it is the mcs that has duped us into believing these things and it is not who we are I forgive myself for all the times that I have judged another as being weak and became angry at them, thus only to hide my own fear that I believe the same way. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to carry this false image of myself as being "strong" from the very starting point of being afraid of my own weakness.

Oh My how I have judged others and their weakness! Only to cover up the weakness that I felt inside of myself about myself...

I forgive myself that I have accept myself to fear being weak I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed being "weak" as a failure of a human life. I forgive myself that I have feared being a failure.

What is a failure???? hmm I will look it up

Quote: 1. The condition or fact of not achieving the desired end or ends: the failure of an experiment. 2. One that fails: a failure at one's career. 3. The condition or fact of being insufficient or falling short: a crop failure. 4. A cessation of proper functioning or performance: a power failure. 5. Nonperformance of what is requested or expected; omission: failure to report a change of address. 6. The act or fact of failing to pass a course, test, or assignment. 7. A decline in strength or effectiveness. 8. The act or fact of becoming bankrupt or insolvent.

Hmmm so what to I fear failing at?

Everything I do! What a stupid fear!!

It is a judgment against myself that I am not good enough... Not Good enough at what? Less than... Less than what! ?

Self comparison

compare to what ?!

I STOP this comparison!

This is a ridiculous con-sept !! A con that we have accepted! WE have been lied to and made to believe that there are others better than ourselfs to we will allways be striving to be "something" better and we dont even know what that would be because there is NO END to it!

Thus we stay in constant separation and never get to Know OUR SELF.

A CON of Perception

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that this con is real I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge me in comparison to another

Fear of not being good enough

I , from a feeling of not being good enough, also do stuff to portray myself as strong, self confident, cool, etc.

so other beings may see this and think i am all of that

but: i need them to experience me in that way, without their judgement, i am nothing, i feel worthless

-->i look at my dad in this, he compared me with everyone when i was a child and so i continued doing that

i look at others to see what i have to do or say, to know what my expression must look like because appearantly mine isn t good enough

also i write what i think others will like to read, stuff like that or is it what i would like to read?

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to answer in my expression to what others would like me to be or do without even considering the possibility that nobody sets standards for me but me out of fear of not being good enough i forgive myself for accepting and allowingmyself to believe that it is others that do not find me good enough i forgive myself for not accepting and allowingmyself to realise that the only reason why i don t find me good enough or why i feel like i m not good enough is because i try to be someone i m not i forgiv emyself for not accepting and allowingmyself to realise that it is impossible for me as life to want to be like someone else because i am one and equal to everyone i forgive myself for not acceptingand allowingmyself to realise that aslong as i dont accept who i am completely as different from other people, though one and equal, i will never be good enough i forgive myself for not accepting and allowingmyself to realise that not being good enough is just a thought and a feeling as a memory that i stored in my mind as my mind due to reactions i allowed myself to experience towards past events i am here it s impossible to be somewhere else thus it s impossible to be someone else i am breath it is impossible to be something else in oneness and equality i am.

Depression

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to believe that depression exists. I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to believe that when I'm depressed, depression becomes who I am and what I am. I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to want to blame my depression on everyone and everything else. I forgive myself that I havn't allowed myself to realize that depression is actually the body trying to have me realize that THERE IS SOMETHING WRONG and that I am AFRAID of doing something 'too big' or 'too major' about it. I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to fear doing something 'too big' or 'too major', and fearing that I may elicit too much attention and end up being an outcast in this society.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to become depressed because of how depressed my friend is.

Forgiving myself

Thoughts and feelings are programs. Think of them as chains, or shackles of adamant.

Listen: Last night for the first time, I applied forgiveness for having the various thoughts, feelings and emotions I had during my day and for the way I let myself get twisted up in emotional knots by D and her problems, (among other things I am dealing with). And it sort of clicked: emotions and feelings pull you back into the past! Interesting. I caught myself slipping into the past every time I let my thoughts and feelings of some past event with her invade my mind. Actually, I've been forgiving myself for thinking, and I had a pretty good day. It's not the same asgoing to confession, saying, "Forgive me Father, for I have sinned." Because God doesn't forgive you.

You forgive yourself.

Not sure why, but applying this seems to work. I believe it made a slight difference today. I still thought more than I wanted, and experienced some emotions, but compared to yesterday, when Denise was giving me the business, man-- it felt much better! So don't wait two months before you start applying these ideas into your life. It's just time being wasted.

Another persective:

almost like mind mapping.

lets say you feel sad. the first point. second point, Why? Then trace this feeling until you get to its origin.

Today i started getting sick, so then you ask yourself why are you sick?

Look at the feeling and then thoughts that comes up. In my case its was conflict with myself, not trusting myself in my application, fear being vulnerable. and a few other. So my body is showing me this so that i can deal with it. Your body assists you a lot in this process. It tels you a lot about yourself. As you become aware of yourself you will notice this.

So i will start with: " I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to be vulnerable" (Vulnerable in the sense of not hiding, speaking direct, put down defenses and allow people in...) But were does this come from? Oh! My father! and the idea of "A man must be a man!" So "I forgive myself that i have allowed myself to copy this behaviour from society and my father. I set myself free from my father."

"I am vulnerable" "I am courage" And so i go on.

Another perspective:

How I apply practical forgiveness in every moment is in my application of inner awareness in the moment before I act in outer awareness-- so in my world I am known as the destroyer-- because--once I am certain I am honestwithme and what I am aware of I have corrected in my self expression, I will reveal the point in the other that requires correction tothe point where their world will destruct-- normallythey are angry --but inevitably they return in forgiveness and understanding--this is how we enlighten the world through revelation of inner awareness as the outer expressionof what we are aware of in every moment

see how humanty is being forced to speak outwith world events having little or no effect-- because they have not yet done this process of selfawareness at an inner level of practicality-- thus-- great calamity must now manifest--not necessary if we get our asses in gear with revelation in the moment and forgiveness and selfcorrection

I have been living like this for years, but to place it in practical word s took a while.

My idea of meaning

I just realized today that I've been unaware that the primary reason I have thoughts is because through thoughts I experience the perception that myself and the world around me is something more than what myself and the world already is - thoughts make me feel alive and give me the perception of meaning and reason to exist.

meaning, I've defined life and living according to consciousness - or thought, through which I am able to form ideas about the meaning and reason of my existence - and without thoughts, I am not alive - I do not 'mean' anything - and without projecting my thoughts onto the world around me, the world is not alive and the world does not 'mean' anything.

therefore I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define life and living as having a meaning and reason to live

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself according to my idea of meaning and reason to exist

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I need to form ideas through thoughts, of who I am and what I mean, instead of realizing that I am here, alive, and therefore common sense is that breathing and being here in the physical is enough

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that if I have ideas about myself and the world, I can hide in them to justify not taking responsibility for what is here, myself

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that thoughts, ideas and definitions of myself exist within the perception of time as movement, and are therefore not self movement - as self movement is here as myself in the physical in the moment of breath.

Self-Forgiveness on Veno's Structural Resonance Documents - 'The wrist'

16) Wrist

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as a slave.

I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to look at humanity beyond the enslavement.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see, experience, perceive and believe myself to be inferior for ever.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see, believe, perceive and experience myself to be controlled by something outside of myself, I have no control, I am pawn, I am slave to this existence.

I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to realise myself as self control.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to trust and rely on a source that would control me in the right way outside of myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am trapped in a cage where there is no way out.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to open the door of the cage and get out.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear losing my mind out of fear of losing myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am the mind and nothing else.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to limit myself by seeking and searching for the ultimate answer that is going to solve all the problems of my existence.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to search and seek a purpose in my life for which I can exist.

I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to be content with life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to look for a purpose outside of myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to keep looking outside instead of realising what I am already.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I need to be worthy towards other human beings.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I need a reason to exist in this world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am of no importance.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am of no worth.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I need to follow a path to become someone.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to "survive" in this world by looking for the ultimate answer, reason purpose of like, making myself be of worth and importance because I perceive myself not to be of that.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I cannot understand and comprehend anything in this world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to perceive myself to be inferior and apparently not having the ability to understand or comprehend anything that exist and must follow journeys and paths to "become" something. And thus I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to seek and look and trying to gain purpose to 'understand' reason, to 'feel’ special and to attain some 'higher' importance.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself wanting to attaint something of a higher importance.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to accept the world the way it is and just live with it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see, perceive, believe and experience myself as if there is nothing that I can do to change this, world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe, see, experience, perceive myself to be nothing and no one.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself wanting to make sense out of everything.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see, believe, perceive, and experience myself as if I cannot live in a world without a sense.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself wanting and looking, searching for answers (outside) of myself to give myself purpose and meaning in this world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to form and develop perceptions and beliefs to the reason and purpose of man's existence on earth.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame everything on “our creator".

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to conform and condition myself to that which is acceptable and allowed in this world and that which is not acceptable and allowed in this world.

I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to condition and conform to that which already exists here on earth.

I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to condition and conform myself to that which is 'safe' and that has already been 'tested' and 'tried' by others that have gone before me.

I forgive myself that I haven't allowed and accepted myself to completely break free from all and challenge all that exist. I forgive myself that I haven't allowed and accepted myself to challenge all that I've ever known.

I forgive myself that I haven't allowed and accepted myself to break free from all I've ever known.

I forgive myself that I haven't allowed and accepted myself to challenge all I've ever trusted.

I forgive myself that I haven't allowed and accepted myself to break free from all I've ever trusted.

I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to remain within that which has been laid out before me by those that have gone before me that was of consciousness enslavement.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am inferior and finite.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed and accepted myself to believe and perceive myself to exist within a seemingly vast existence separate from all within and of existence, with dimensional beings 'more profound and great in knowledge and wisdom' than Man.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe and perceive dimensional beings to be some sort of “gods” that need to be “worshipped”.

I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to follow the conditionings and conformities of existence.

I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to create a god and participate in spiritualities, because I perceive myself to have no answers, ability or power or anything within existence as one with what I am.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to “worship” the dimensional beings, perceiving them to be greater and profound.

I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to perceive myself not having answers, abilities, power or anything within existence as one with who I am.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to remain in the search for answers and the hope of a solution to this world and myself.

I forgive myself that I haven't allowed and accepted myself to realise that each human being in this world is responsible for all as one and must stand up, must wake up, must live and apply who they are in every moment.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to stand up, wake up, live and apply who I am in every moment.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to give up and let go of all that I've ever know and trusted within and of this world and myself to see, hear and realise myself as who I really am.

Self-Pity

If someone I knew would suddenly get ill and want to share their entire process of being ill with me, why would that irritate me? If I were to be very ill, why would I want for others to know how bad I am doing??

It reminds me of people that break up and just can’t stop whining about how terrible it is for them that they lost the one they loved.

It’s the same pattern and in both cases I’d get irritated.

Maybe it’s about self-pity. Instead of realising that what they did, they manifested themselves through acceptance and allowance, they go into self-pity and want for others to suport that in feeling sorry for them, so they do not have to stand up and take self-responsability.

So, I’m then in fact irritated with myself when I go into self-pity and go to other people talk about all the terrible things happening to me so they would feel sorry for me so I don’t have to stand up for me.

Also, if I were to be ill and want to share that with others, it would be because I would want them to feel bad as well. I would believe that they do not deserve to be living a happy life when I’m being ill and suffering and all. I would want them to suffer as I’m suffering, muahaha.

And indeed, in receiving all this information of someone being very sick, I would be irritated and feel as if I’m now not allowed to enjoy myself because of this friend suffering, believing it is then unappropriate to enjoy myself and go into guilt if I would be enjoying myself. I would then be irritated and angry with the friend for wanting to make me feel bad - when, like I said, I would do the same thing.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to - when something is bothering me - go into self-pity instead of taking a good look at what’s bothering me and why and stand up for me taking self-responsability to stop everything that is not who I am to exist within me. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to - when something is bothering me - to want to go and talk about it to others so they feel sorry for me so they can suport my self-pity, preventing me to stand up for myself. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want for others to suport my self-dishonesty as self-pity. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to rather go wrap myself in self-pity and do nothing at all, than realise that what I am experiecing is what I manifested through my acceptances and allowances and that thus I am able to stop it as well. I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that if a sick person would want to share everything about this sickness with me, I would do the exact same thing and because I would not see how I want others to feel sorry for myself to suport my self-pity to not stand up for me, I would see it in that person and then I would accept and allow myself to become angry, irritated and frustrated, because I would do the exact same thing. I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that I do the exact same thing as beings who break up and go talk about it to everyone and because I do not see my want for others to feel sorry for me to suport my self-pity to not stand up and take self-responsability in myself, I see it in these other beings, and then i accept and allow myself to become angry, irritated and frustrated, because I do the exact same thing. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to - when breaking up with a person - go whine about it with everyone I know with every opportunity I get so they would feel sorry for me and suport my self-pity instead of me standing up in myself and realising that it was self-dishonest to start a relationship with a being separate from me in the first place. I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to relise that if a sick person would want to share everything about this sickness with me, I woul do the exact same thing and because I would not see how I would want others to feel bad the way I feel bad and suffer the way I suffer, I would see it in that person and then i would accept and allow myself to become angry, irritated and frustrated, because i would do the exact same thing. I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to relise that i do the exact same thing as beings who break up and go talk about it to everyone and because I do not see my want for others to feel as bad and down as me, my want for them to suffer as I am suffering, I see it in these other beings, and then i accept and allow myself to become angry, irritated and frustrated, because I do the exact same thing. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to - when breaking up with a person - go whine about it with everyone I know with every opportunity I get so they would feel as bad as I am feeling and suffer the way that i am suffering. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that if I suffer, no-one else deserves to enjoy themselves anymore and should all suffer as I am suffering. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear to be alone in suffering. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that others do not care about me suffering. I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that all suffering is self-inflicted. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that if a friend of mine is suffering, I must suffer as well and am no longer allowed to enjoy myself. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be angry with myself for believing that I must suffer if someone else suffers. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to rather turn away when someone is suffering to not see what is currently busy manifesting in this world and how I am allowing it to happen. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make me suffer.